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I have borderline personality disorder. My feelings are like a rollercoaster. I'm lonely. And it's like handels messiah lonely. I feel so tense from the theme park rides. Pray for me

I pray all of us keep on with the Master

Dance then wherever you may be

I am the Lord of the dance said he

And I will lead you all wherever you may be

And I will lead you all in the dance said he

I know what you mean about true love

It's so hard to imagine everything was for nothing

@Lozenge Praying for you. What are the main symptoms you suffer from?

Jesus loves you please do not forget amidst the suffering.

God’s Love Transforms.

Truth did not come from distant skies—

He met me somewhere deep inside.

The pressure building, hard to name,

as something in me split the strain.

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Conflicting voices filling my mind—

fear, anger and religion intertwined.

Each voice demanding more control,

each one claiming it make me whole.

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My thoughts no longer in His rest,

a perpetual storm within my chest.

Old wounds surfaced, sharp and near,

echoing doubt, magnifying my fear.

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And then—Christ's lovely fire Came!

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Not chaos, confusion or terror's voice,

His truth steadily cutting through the noise.

The Presence of His Love strong and near,

which does not feed on my rising fear.

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He does not shout nor strive or chase

Jesus Came and took His rightful Place.

In His revealing light so clear and true,

inner falsehood His truth inside me slew.

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For what burned was not the core of me,

but all inside keeping me from being free

the weight of all the lies and inward strain,

patterns I formed heeding fear and pain.

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It is not easy for truth has to go very deep.

The heart break our Lord wants me to keep.

For even as His holy fire clears The Way,

something real is born within me to stay.

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No more voices speaking rage or fear.

No more double mind in constant fight.

For no self effort can come even near

To the workings of His love and light.

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My life far above all the noise I’d known,

sure knowledge I was never on my own.

Nor created to struggle loss and strains,

but be also one He in His love sustains.

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His fire remains—therefore now I see,

God's love was never sent to undo me.

His torch of love to heal and to realign,

to place all that is broken back in line.

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Let His Word me from my lies divide.

so all falsehood will fall away inside.

For His flaming love steady and true,

God’s Spirit re-creating my life anew

@ENKELI @Realness @Appleblossom @heartathome @Shaz51

i've been rather anxious and down this afternoon. Didn't have any treatment. Hope everyone is okay?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_CzcgezyUk4

@DownMoreThanUp

My symptoms are emotional neediness

Fear and terror from emptiness

Never listened to Jacob Lee..quite different

Genesis 2:3 (NIV):

"Then God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it he rested from all the work of creating that he had done." 🙏

Biblical summary

Genesis 2:3 teaches that rest is part of God's good design for life. After completing creation, God blessed the seventh day and set it apart as holy. By doing this, He established a pattern of work followed by rest. The verse reminds us that taking time to rest, worship, and enjoy God's presence is not wasted time—it's a gift from Him. Rest is meant to renew us and to help us remember that our worth comes from God, not from constant activity or achievement.

It's a beautiful verse because it shows that, right at the beginning of the Bible, God made space for peace before humanity had done anything to earn it. 💜

@ENKELI @Realness @DownMoreThanUp @Appleblossom

@Lozenge in hear you. Anxiety is a very hard task master indeed. i love Psalm 27 and 91 about that. You know these people? Sons of Korah? Awesome band got all their music, best ever when anxious or down.

Psalm 27

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Yv2jYbuIc8&list=RD8Yv2jYbuIc8&start_radio=1

Psalm 91

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iUZhTMZF_1I&list=RDiUZhTMZF_1I&start_radio=1

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i love Jacob Lee He has so many good songs. i love demons, conscious, cursed, ocean, and guidance the best.

Jacob Lee - Conscious

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LOvr8rbYd8U&list=RDLOvr8rbYd8U&start_radio=1

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@heartathome Thank you posting that sis. Yes our Lord ALWAYS wanted us to ENTER His Rest, but we decided that to labour our efforts mixing wrong with right as our spiritual diet instead of Rest in Him. The sad story we have all suffered ever since.

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@Realness @ENKELI @Appleblossom

i was very down a low 3, need two nicotine patches to even be able to get to treatment today and then spend 15 minutes trying to convince me to let me go back home having full on suicidal ideation. However the mental health nurse did in the end agree hospital would not be the best thing for me, and my proven resolve to not heed my negativity in state. He is going to keep a check on me by phone and gave me his number if i feel i'm slipping my resolve.

However the TMS treatment did lift my mood a little and i'm on a solid 4 now.

i hope you guys doing better.

@heartathome @Appleblossom @ENKELI @Realness @Lozenge

My mood has dropped considerably. Back in danger zone. Dark thoughts galore. However tho the down is as down as ever, which has been really disappointing 8 sessions of TMS treatments near 25 percent of the total scheduled if i decide to keep on going after Mondays session.

It has not been a complete waste of money. although the treatment is very emotional and truly heavy load going, i has had a lot of results apart of the depression. The best i did not at get in that awful 'cold emotional'. The state i fear the most, instead i had a strong sense that Jesus was with me all day. i felt a lot of love, compassion and encouragement all day. That was wonderful and made me thankful even this low.

Also my anxiety was very high first things this morning, but after treatment it has been reduced by at least 70 percent. And then the familiar rage at these levels, for although i woke up down and angry, very close to a 2 out of 10 mood wise, i did not rage, and haven't raged all day. Hardly any voices in my head either. Also, and this was something very new to me, i often found myself arguing with the dark thoughts, instead of agreeing 100 percent, like i used to this down, i disagreed with quiet a lot of them now.

Lets hope the down wont last too long. It has been crippling. And i had to go to Town twice. That showed me without a doubt i do not want to go on like this long term on my own.

And that the anxiety and rage will go, for then i dare to hope the levels of depression i suffer now will also lessen over time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xYZP4Z4y_JU&list=RDxYZP4Z4y_JU&start_radio=1

@DownMoreThanUp my friend took me on a road trip yesterday. We played digital radio 80s new wave. 2ue954 can have good music sometimes but I hate the high rotation big hits

Stuff that has so much airplay ....

There's Also indie +alt, ....

How are you?