My silent battles

Sitting with you my dear @Flutterbug9

The words resonate with me @tyme

Starting my thread as new, as the other one has become too cluttered. @tyme @Jynx @AlwaysMyself @MissGremlin @Chasingsunsets

@Flutterbug9 sitting with you sweetheart and sending you hugs ❤️

That's totally okay to start a new thread. I've subscribed to it so I don't miss your posts @Flutterbug9 .

I've been thinking about you a lot and was wondering if you were okay.

Last few weeks have been filled with feeling like constantly being hit with a new item, each one draining me.

one morning received an email and had couple of phone calls that were good news. The relief sent me into tears and saw me physically shaking @tyme

With all the dramas and stress related to getting alfresco drapes, I’m still on edge and expecting something else to go wrong again. Couple weeks until the blinds get installed one day with electrician coming following day.

im now involved in activities 3 days every week. Whilst there I experience honest enjoyment. I can’t maintain those feelings after activities are over and have lost almost all interest in everything.

Im taking things one day and a time

have things I need to chase up and discuss with my GP. Conversation I’m not looking forward to. choosing to mentioning something to my new psych that has happened twice that I’m already said I don’t want to have happen with this psych.

With mix of everything, becoming comfortable with realising I’m NB plus have autistic traits and what all that means for me. There’s a lot going on in my mind that going to take time for me to process etc, things not worth talking about

Fresh start is always good hey @Flutterbug9 😊

Hear you're juggling and processing a lot. Always happy to hold some space for you when you're ready 💜

providing support to a very close relative whose partner has serious heart condition @Jynx. nothing to do with me hence I don’t talk about it. Very stressful for everyone, very similar to cause of my mums death

Oh hun, that hits so close to home @Flutterbug9 - appreciate you sharing this, and I am sending you some gentle hugs (if you want them) 💜

(づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡

@AlwaysMyself open day on Saturday was a disaster, glad it’s been and gone. Have moved on from it.

Mexican train Thursday nights finishes somewhere between 9:30 and 10pm. Quick general chat whilst stretching, walk to my car in the cool/cold air, few mins drive home and bed.
only thing I can think of to eliminate the crash is not to go and that’s not happening.

Im no longer using the other thread I created. Feeling it’s too cluttered. Doesn’t feel like my thread anymore.

model trains is an expensive hobby. The red locomotive I took a photo of and posted is part of a train set that consists of that locomotive plus 6 carriages, estimated purchase price $800. One steam loco my husband bought, atm purchase price $300. My loco which is fitted for digital plus sound, $300 starting cost. To buy all the track for layout I’m got as draft will be $x,xxx. If goes to plan there will be cost of timber for table/s, underlay, foam and associated cutting tools. Then will come bridges, track, scenery, buildings.
Need to get garden shed before that, more 💰💰

sorry to hear it’s very hot where you are. Are you staying at your sisters place? Portable fan for the bedroom? Hoping your time visiting your sisters place goes well and that you also get time to rest as much and as often as you need. I fully understand if you are not on the forums or I don’t hear from you for the next couple of weeks. Remember you saying about 3 consecutive busy weeks, part reason why I haven’t posted asking about you 🙂

@Jynx @AlwaysMyself

Ive sent email requesting copy of all my primary and high school reports and photos. Waiting to hear back regarding next step. If for nothing else, I’d like to have copy for myself. These are amongst unknown amount of things of mine prior to me turning 17yo that were destroyed or “lost” decades ago.

You might like watch this video @AlwaysMyself

good example of model train digital (DCC) with sounds

there also is YouTube video on much larger size loco (LGB) where love is fitted with sound and smoke