Tales of a sleepy Jynx!!
Whilst I do still get smacked by insomnia from time to time, I have found improvements by examining and altering the way I view sleeplessness. I think one of my biggest challenges has been those evenings when I know I need to sleep (cos I have to wake up early or I have a big day ahead), and just by having that thought alone can mean I end up getting no sleep at all.
I learned something about a year or so ago that ended up being a game changer for me - even if you don't sleep, just resting (laying down and cutting out all sensory stimulation, like sound and light) does more to improve brain function than if you continue to do activities and stuff. I call it a 'power down'. I also find it near-impossible to nap most times because it usually takes me at least 30-40 minutes to get to sleep, so a 20 minute power nap is pointless; instead I have a 20 minute power down and legit it does help! And same for trying to sleep and being unable to, if I reassure myself that I'm still having a power down and it is still helpful in giving my mind and body rest, it alleviates a lot of the anxiety for me.
Another thing I try to notice is frustration. When I know I need to sleep, but can't cos my brain is too loud, I have learned that if I start to get frustrated with myself, it's only going to increase all the brain chemicals that keep me awake. So rather than continue to lie there getting more and more frustrated, I will get up - just for half an hour or so. I try to read rather than go on my phone, blue light and all that, or I'll potter around and do a household task or something. Then I'll feel the wave of sleepy and go 'ok time to go be horizontal again!' and like, 7/10 times I will end up falling asleep.
For me, trying to practice acceptance has gone a long way. Anxiety can tend to build on itself, like with frustration - the more agitated I am, the more my brain releases chemicals like adrenaline or dopamine that are associated with action, movement, tasks, etc., the more awake I am, thus the more frustrated I get, and on and on. It becomes a cycle. The more I think about how much sleep I'm not getting, or how annoyed I am, or how impacted my day will be, the worse it gets. Sometimes, I just have to remind myself that even if I get no sleep tonight, it doesn't mean everything will be a pile o crap - I may not be at my best, but I can still function and get through the day.
If you made it this far, thanks for reading! 💜