@Spitfire1
The best advise i can give you is please stop trying to be someone you think you ought to be. Doing that you are effectively sabotaging who you are even today. A beautiful person not wrong or defective. Honest my friend i stuffed much of my life up doing that.
For the more we try to be someone we are NOT, the more we class ourselves a failure, and such makes ANYONE feel anxious. The answer is simply accept who you are, even today in your low self esteem. Because you are GOOD ENOUGH already! Nothing to be anxious about anyhow. That is a false concept put in your head to torment you social lies and expectations.
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Our Eternal Discovery!
Nothing is greater
than living truthfully true.
Let each day reveal again
the quiet miracle of existence.
For reality shapes us true,
even when you stumble.
Let true love sustain you
also when you grow weary
or fail yourselves.
Living true preserves the soul
for true is a child of truth.
Truly Born to be alive
tested by suffering,
shaped by experience,
yet never without worth.
For the worth of true you
cannot be measured by gold,
nor weighed against the wealth of the earth.
Your value is very great.
Greater than riches.
Greater than power.
Greater than all the treasures
of this passing world.
For someone who lives in truth
lives a life destined to be eternal.
This is where the final discovery remains:
Your life has meaning
loved and loving.
Your moments lived
are never unseen.
Your truth will live on
preserving you you.
For your true self
is worth more
than all the wealth
of the universe
to the truth
that's you!

