Need help. This isn't going to sound good

Hello @kaiFord and welcome to the forums. Thank you for being so brave and sharing this with the community. It sounds like you're really aware of what's happening for you and I don't hear someone that wants to be angry but rather someone who's trying to understand it and change things.

I'm sorry that it gets to a point where you're hurting yourself when you're angry. You don't have to go through this on your own. If those feelings start to become too overwhelming or you're worried you might hurt yourself then I'd really encourage you to reach out to someone you trust or a crisis service for support.

Have you found anything that helps when things start to build up? It can be hard to calm down once we've gotten to a point that things feel unbearable but we can train ourselves to recognise the warning signs and then put things in place to calm before it becomes unmanageable.

You're not alone here, we're here to support you however we can ❤️.

Hello @kaiFord good on you for reaching out here.

While I can't honestly give any specific advice. I can say that it's good for you to acknowledge that you are feeling this way and that you need to find some help.

Do you have a good GP? Do you have a mental health care professional to find some support from. Are you able to speak to a friend?

Perhaps try tapping into some online support eg Beyond blue, Lifeline or 1800 RESPECT or one of the many other including the links on the SANE website.

I understand that if must be terribly distressing for to feel so out of control. So please take care and try to find some support.

I wish you well and encourage you to keep trying. Please let us here help as best we can

Be kind to yourself @Taali

Thanks nah don't have help. Don't wanna do anything in person as I'm in a small town that would spread it. Alright GP I guess. Wish I could just get a blunt answer. But thanks for taking the time, and giving me suggestions

Thanks for the much appreciated lucky when I hurt myself it's nothing life threatening [edited by moderator], it's to a point feel hardly any pain until guess the rush is over.

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Sorry was just a test. Lately what's been getting to me, is that I work 3 days a week have Tuesday and Wednesdays off. I pay rent at the house and do my own stuff. Now I get made to cook dinner once a week that's alright, but now am being made either work with my dad or clean all day when I'm off work. I just want to rest as my work is demanding but they don't allow it and it frankly makes me mad

They're thing for us is that they say "no-one has set jobs around the house, yet would leave the bins overflowing and add to it untill they tell me to take it out" it makes me feel like I'm just working on my days off. Loving being electronic devices a lot as that's what kept me here when I was going through something shit and they tell at me if I'm on them during the day. I know they don't know that games are why I'm still here but again it's annoying. Please don't say something like go talk to them, I've tried they don't listen.

Dearest @kaiFord so sorry to hear that you're still struggling

I won't say "talk to them" because I know you already have.

Maybe make some appointments for Tuesday and Wednesdays so that you're unavailable.

It's great that you're reaching out here.

Keep on keeping on dear friend 🧡

It often helps to just be able to connect with people who care. You'll certainly find that here.

Go gently @Taali ✨️